Thursday, May 10, 2007


So here is a bit of an internal struggle.

I hate cigarettes and smoking and the fact that people are addicted to something so stupid. However, the past few months I have had this urge to try it. None of my friends smoke, so I was not able to bum a smoke off of them. I am too cheap to go out and buy a pack, just for the sake of smoking one (though I was extremely temped at numerous points but didn't have the cash on me thankfully).

But today, on my way back from work, a pack came into my possession. I know most of you will think this is gross, but I found it on the ground. The box was there and I kicked it, and it had weight to it, so I snatched it. It wasn't full, it had fourteen of its twenty inside still. Camels, what I would have bought.

So now, everything that may have hindered me seems to have passed. I know my friends dissapprove, but hell with them 'cause I do what I want.

I worry though, if I smoke one, I will smoke them all and in turn become addicted to them. But I think I am going to do it, just the one. To see. If you have any objections please tell me, don't bother telling me statistics 'cause I've heard them too. I will take comments to heart.